21 May 2007

papa

it is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye. antoine de saint-exupery. with my father's 60th birthday steadily approaching, i want more and more to be in Georgia celebrating his Big day. so i called my company's American Express Travel Agent this morning and the nice man on the other line who i swear i could hear under his breath say to me 'silly girl checking on flights 3 days out' that a direct flight would cost me over a thousand dollars. duh, i get it - yes, i understand it is last minute - and yes, i understand i should have booked my flight well, well, in advance SO i suppose i shouldn't get all too bent out of shape. --in the photo above, i was in love with that blue outfit with my matching red pin-- WE, the siblings, want to do something creative, something bold, something loud for this momentous occasion and then i wonder, what will Papa think? deep down inside, i feel papa has a bit of my desire to be always in the limelight so i think he would secretly love all of the attention and hype then again, either way you slice it ;) its just not going to be the same without ME around. he he... when i think of my father as a little girl, i think he was always by my side, he loved me unconditionally, always engraved my musical instruments, the list goes on and on but for some reason, i always remember when driving the cadillac/volvo after him my hands would smell like his cologne. we had our differences when i was younger or shall i rephrase that by saying i was a teenager and was always going against his authority. can you say stupid was me! but then later on in my life, i began to listen, talk more and i believe a lot of my wit comes from him. |mom, remember, you are my talking buddy, as papa LOVEs to call it|. so there you go, i wonder what the el-siblings that are able to hug him on a daily basis are going to do? i'm thinking GO BIG!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I have found in my 30's how much I appericate my Mom (actually my grandmother who raised me, who will be 75 this year). I realize that one day she won't be here for me to call and ask "how do I do this". How sad, we waste all that time in teenage years fighting against them, only to find later they knew what they were talking about!!!

Anonymous said...

you make me miss my pa too!!! just send him love on friday...he will feel you even if you are not right there next to him. if you forget...its on my calendar so i will remind you.

Amy said...

I'm such a problem solver, so I can help but offer this: www.lastminutedeals.com. Hope you can make it to see your dad!

natalie said...

oh thankies... i will see what i can do but i have a feeling i will have to call, text message and email on the hour every hour... the only thing that is missing is a blow up ... photo of ME sitting in my parents living room.