31 December 2009

The cheese(y) report. Written once a year.

Photo above: taken 2 years ago. I use to have friends come over for a wine and knitting night. This has been one of those years where I had to adjust to a number of changes in my life and boy O boy, did I have to adjust fast. For the last four years, I've been working on myself: to become more Natalie, more comfortable in my own skin. It has been a good year but I noticed one thing about myself and that was I can shut myself off so fast in front of other people purely based on instinct, like a protection mechanism goes off in my head. I have to learn to not feel threatened by the new people that enter my life and changes that may alter my lifestyle, etc. I just wanted to point that out in general here because I have a tendency to think WAY too much. My goal for 2010 is to go with the flow and not care so much about how my night will go, for example. I need to basically live more in the moment. More importantly, my family is very dear to me and I want to establish more communication with each family member. I can't wait to go see my brand new little nephew here soon. A kick start in knitting, snowboarding, photographing, a trip to somewhere exotic and sending more snail mail to my family and friends is next year's priority. Steven and I are doing wonderful. He tells me everyday how much he loves me. So what more could I ask for? To the accomplishments and celebrations by all my friends out there - you know who you are: cheers to all of you. Here's to me not thinking so much, losing more than 20 pounds (a must), living in the moment and getting back into the swing of what Natalie loves to do best! Wishing everyone a wonderful and happy New Year.


Amanda P. said...

I love your post and of course all the pics you've posted lately! I hope that 2010 is a great year for you! i think I'm going to learn to knit this year. I wish we lived closer so you could teach me :)

Have a wonderful end to 2009, I can't wait to see what you do next year.

natalie said...

Awww schucks, thanks so much Amanda. I love seeing little M growing up through your photos and now with the new Video cam you guys got for Christmas. ENJOY your New Year too! Best wishes.